Each one of us has a childhood habit which we would resume whenever at home or in need of comfort. These habits don't go away even till one turns middle-aged and I find that quite interesting. Some of the habits I have seen:
Rubbing on cotton puffs that appear on bedsheets
Smelling a stinky old pillow which is covered in drool
Feeling the apex of pillows, collars or anything sharp
Chewing on lips
Cracking of fingers
Digging of nose wax and eating it
Touching the upper cleft of the lip
This is rather common among Malaysians and I wonder why? It is because we adopt this sub-consciously when we see our parents doing the same? I don't remember what are my parents' habits but each one of us children has a habit. Our parents tried to stop us initially from the habits but eventually, gave up trying for it seem harmless to them. In a weird way, having a childhood habit is comforting whenever one is sad, lonely or misses home provided it is not disgusting.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Habitual Claims
Fighting Sleep
Right now, I am sleepy but I'm struggling to stay awake. Time is precious and to spend so much time sleeping is a waste. That is my only reason. As a result of this reasoning and habitual fighting of sleep, my body has adjusted itself to minimise sleep. Hence, the puffy and dark eye bags which have taken permanent residence under my eyes.
Hoey Theen
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Giving Up Its Soul
Those were the last words I uttered to a dying friend. I was devastated to know that his time was up as I struggled to accept this sad truth. Nevertheless, he had been a faithful friend for the past 2 years. To think that his time is up, it is indeed a difficult passing for me.
My SAMSUNG mobile has been my life partner in these years. Going through thick and thin with me, he is now aged, physically worn out and handicapped in many ways. After dunking in toilet bowls, dipping in drains and falling from great heights, this faithful friend survived all challenges.
Finally, he has reached a time where he lost his eyesight. No longer able to see text, my friend can now only see lines. All numbers and words are lost. Just like Van Gogh, his eyesight deteriorated to a point it has become an abstract world to me. I can no longer see the world through my friend's eyes and as such, it is time for retirement.
Arranging for my friend's retirement is almost like a death sentence to me. My connection to the world has been cut. No outgoing calls or messages. I cannot even read the incoming messages. Alone since his death, I relunctantly seek a new friend to replace the void I feel. My search revealed many potential friends but my shortlisted friends are only the SAMSUNG touch screen or the SONY ERICSON W300i. Which shall I choose?
I like both but I can only manage 1 friend at a time. Before I choose my next friend, I would rather mourn the death of my old faithful mate. A sad goodbye, my mourning days will last till my sadness disappears and a new friend reappears.
Hoey Theen
Robbed of Innocence
A young child exposed to molestation is a common societal problem yet many choose to deny the ugly truth because they do not know how to deal with it. The difficult part of acceptance usually deals with the person committing the crime. This is usually a person close to the victim and family. Closeness is associated with acceptance into the family circle and trust in that person. An act of molestation breaches this very trust and the familiarity surrounding this person. How does a parent deal with the change in reality? Many choose denial as the safest route or postponement as a way of buying time before dealing with the situation. Both can be detrimental to a child.
In the case study above, the child took another 14 years before telling her parents the truth to protect her younger siblings. The mother took the news in tears and started to take precautions for the safety of the younger ones. Words of comfort and offers of counselling were given. While the father took the news silently and never spoke a word of it to another.
What does this mean to the child? The act alone left scars of guilt, fear, pain and doubt in the child. Even though, by no means was this the fault of the child, she didn't know this and yet these negative feelings settled in a child as young as 5. The child was forced to learn to deal with these emotions at a tender age and took on the responsibility to protect her siblings at a price. The price of innocence and trust. The child could not trust any man as easily as before and this affected her relationships. The child, now a grown woman, has to face the ghost of her past even till today.
The moral education today should include an area of study and that is the right of a child. Not that I'm condemning the current syllabus but it should include a variety of important common knowledge such as rights to one's childhood and preservation.
Parents should take not be afraid to ask the child occasionally if he/she is uncomfortable with any adult and why. Such a question will open avenues to what the child is experiencing. In conclusion, a traumatic experience such as molestation leaves a life-long scar on any child and it must be addressed and allowed to heal for the victim to resume a normal life.
Hoey Theen
Friday, February 23, 2007
Obsession with Slimness
"I'm Too Fat"
"I Must Lose Weight"
Sounds familiar? I said the same something along that line and I was literally shouted down by loads of people. This obsession with keeping thin is not an uncommon syndrome, believe me. A lot of people worship this mantra and it is forever on their lips however, like most mantras - we are paying only lip-service to it. NATO (No Action, Talk Only).
Some of the interesting dieting programmes:
- Eat only vegetables and no meat. This diet only applies on working days. No dieting on public holidays or weekends.
- Diet before CNY to lose weight and eat as normal during CNY
My toning mantra:
- Less Carbs
- Less Fats
- Less Sugar
- Jog on Alternate Days
- 200 Crunches on Alternate Days
Hoey Theen
Finding the Right Fit
I asked myself, "Why all this trouble to dress up?" Knowing myself, I don't dress up for weddings on 1 simple ground but this time, I'm making the exception to dress. Maybe because I haven't been playing dress up for dinners for a long time or because a certain person might be going. Maybe. Unless I see the right dress, I doubt I would get myself another dress. I'll probably save this for a date. Hei! Come to think about this...I have a lovely dress which will be perfect for this wedding night. Something that won't scream yet lovely enough for me to appreciate the dress. Found the right fit.
Finding the right fit triggered my mind on another issue, "Marriage". Many people mistaken temporal passion for love and thinking that they have found the 'right fit', they marry, only to find out that the partner is not the 'right fit' during the marriage. Is love so elusive that people nowadays cannot recognise it? I am tempted to say that emotional immaturity in young marriages increases the chance of finding the wrong fit but this temptation will hold no ground, for many seasoned marriages resulted in divorces, too. I'm more inclined to believe that finding the right fit in a life partner starts with crushes which develop into love as defined by the desire to remain commited to one another.
So, how do one know if they have found the right fit? Not an easy task but one thing is for sure, when you found the right fit - you will know it at once that you would want to be with that person for the rest of your life. Eternal love in a marriage is knowing that you cannot live without that person and both will work to make it last. Who said love was easy? Falling in love is easy, remaining in love is not easy.
So many friends and family made the mistake of associating sex with love. I call this lust and it is definitely not love. Lust induces similar emotions as crushes and infatuations but it is further propelled by hormonal desire. Thus, it is often mistaken as love. Western values of pre-marital sex which was frowned upon by our Eastern families, is now prevalent among the society. As such, increasing the cases of abortions due to unwanted pregnancies. 15 minutes of pleasure and a lifelong commitment ensues. All I can say is that 'Think before You Do".
Hoey Theen
Falling Sick During CNY
After sleeping for what felt like a million years this CNY, my eyebags have finally disappeared and I don't look so trashed. But knowing my schedule, I think this is only temporal till my work begins. Reality has its interludes of rest.
With so much sleep, I thought this was going to be a restful holiday. Instead, I fell sick. Here are my signs and symptoms:
Nose is runny so I made loads of "wantan"
Left ear feels congested and pressurised so I'm a bit deaf there
Left side of the throat feels like a knife has been stuck there permanently
Stomach ache in the middle of the night, depriving me of peaceful sleep
Diarrhea (needless to describe this torture)
Lethargic to the point I sleep more than usual
Sudden loss of appetite
Head feels pressurised and feverish but no fever
Cold when everyone else is feeling hot
All in all, I feel like an invalid and super miserable. I can't even have my orange juice (my usual comfort drink when I'm sick) because its too cooling for my cold. Mum was great in trying to make me feel comfortable. Shall I visit the dr or not? Right now, I can still handle the symptoms but in the middle of the night when I don't have enough sleep and feel miserable, that is when I need medicine most. My fav line, "I'll think about it".
Hoey Theen
Thursday, February 22, 2007
The Fascination of Fashion
Why the desire? What is fashionable? Has society taught us that being fashionable means following what is dictated by a niche group of designers? These designers will hold no power over the society if society doesn't grant it the power in the first place. Amongst these designers, a power of struggle ensues for market domination. Who gets the bigger piece of the pie? Who is more popular among the society? Further enforced by the globalisation of mass media, "fashionable" is an optimal condition desired by the society with rewards of admiration from peers and confidence in self.
Not denying that I myself is a victim of wanting to be fashionable, I find myself subjected to the same desire. My vanity has led me to buying loads of clothes and shoes. Some which I have not worn yet. I spent hours watching "World Fashion" to see what is in the latest season.Though a fashion vain-pot, I am not one to throw out outdated clothings. I believe these designers set the pace of what is fashionable but personal style is an element which makes fashion unique.
My favourite styles are those which are simple in cutting which requires the wearer to make the dress stands out. Simple yet incorporating a touch of ruffles, lace, or an outstanding element ie collar, belt or sleeve. A cross between demure and confidence, romance and reality - that is what I deem personal fashion.
Hoey Theen
Infatuation, Crushes and Love
- Sweaty palms that doesn't dry no matter how many times you wipe it on your skirt.
- Mouth that suddenly becomes dry and no amount of saliva can seem to make it normal once more.
- Heart pumps so fast and hard that you wonder if anyone can hear it. In fact, it sounds louder than the music in the car.
- Sudden shyness which makes you do stupid things.
- Time stops and passes so quickly. Don't know how this happens but it does.
- Heart brims with happiness every time that person emails, sms or calls.
- Constant desire to be in that person's presence.
- Blushes whenever that person is being discussed or mentioned by friends or family.
Infatuation : Foolish or all-absorbing attraction
Crushes: Intense short-lived infatuation
Love: Best described in the 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
"Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in truth.It always protects, trusts, hopes and perseveres. Love never fails."
Case Study: A girl likes a guy and experiences the above signs and symptoms
Which of the 3 conditions is the girl experiencing?
Can it be that the beginning is always an infatuation or a crush which can develop into love if the other party reciprocate?
How does one differentiates real love from a rebounded crush?
Love is beyond mere feelings, it is a condition which demands the whole self to be "in love" and not just the heart.
Hoey Theen
It is OK to be single
Even dad and mum get worried at times. Mum resorted to telling me that I shouldn't be so picky while dad told me to go for social outings more often to meet new people. Friends are setting me up with their single friends. What is this? Am I such a SAD (Single, Alone and Desperate) case?
Are my expectations for a dream guy too difficult to achieve? Some said yes while others wish me luck because they never saw one like that. My sis asked me to list my criteria in a man and once I started rattling away, she stopped me at mid-point and said, "I think you are asking for too much. I would also want a man like that". I'm beginning to think that I'm joining the ranks of spinsterhood.
On the other hand, some friends remain so optimistic that I would find my Mr Right in time to come. Maybe they are right...that time will come or has it arrived(*wink*)?
Hoey Theen
Weird Remarks During CNY
Auntie: How old are you?
HT: 27
Auntie: When are you getting married?
HT: I don't even have a BF, how to get married?
Auntie: Is your bro dating?
HT: No
Auntie: Are your sisters dating?
HT: No
Auntie: Why isn't anyone dating in the family?
HT: I don't know?
Dad had been visiting Mum's 5th sis for the past 28 years and that sis asked:
Auntie: What is your name?
Dad (in surprise): Tony
Recognising Relatives
Dad: We are visiting 2nd Aunt
Children: Who?
Dad: My 2nd Aunt, your grandma's sister
Children: Who?
Dad: The one who stays in Tmn XXX
Children: Who?
Dad: The one who stays in front of the playground
Children: Oh....yeah....that one
Dad: We are visiting "A Bak Chik"
Children: Who?
Dad: One of your relatives on grandma's side. We always visit them. Remember, the boys are about your age.
Children: Who?
Dad: The one who always serve us mee siam with mushrooms and longans
Children: Oh....that one.
Dad: Next stop is Uncle Cheah's place
Children: Who?
Dad: He was my landlord for many years when I was a bachelor. We visited his house last year.
Children: Who?
Dad: The one who always makes us 'Top Hats (ala Pai Tees)'
Children: Oh...that one.
Hoey Theen
A Stressful and Sleepy Year of the Boar
I slept a lot this holiday, too. Maybe my body realised that it has been sleep-deprived and knowing that this is holiday season, it just gives up being energetic and decides to rejuvenate. I slept literally everywhere; in the car while waiting for my parents, in my relative's house, at home while everyone is changing clothes for dinner and immediately upon reaching home in the night after visitations. I'm still sleepy now even though I have slept for 8 hours last night.
Back to CNY, here's how it went:
CNY's Reunion Dinner
Hungry people who waited patiently for the glorious feast that was prepared by Mum, Hoey Theen and Hoey Lit. Mum did the curry rendang chicken and fishball soup, Hoey Theen did the kicap manis fish and vege, while Mum supervised the cooking of the chicken pong teh. The cooking went smoothly except for the little beige scavenger who kept hovering near the stove for scraps.
Visitations
Getting ready for our visitations...means we wait and sleep on the bed while mum puts on her makeup and dad waits in the car.
Playing cards with Cin Cau (oops... I mean Chin Hao)... Btw, getting Chin Hao as your partner in the game of 'Bridge' is as good as losing, parents and relatives catching up with each other in English and Hokkien (the part which lost most of us and we zoned out elsewhere), making uncles and aunties serve us drinks and entertaining ourselves.
When Bored
Out of boredom, we took photos of our silhoulettes, played with Cookie and Duchie though they were more interested in car rides, being juvenile and lazing.
That's CNY in Malacca for us. Did I mention that it was sweltering hot there and constantly inadequate food as no shops were open. I was in constant hunger and sleepiness throughout the trip but thanks to my parents' desire to ensure their offsprings are well-fed...all I had to say was "hungry" and I'll get food ASAP.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Hi's and bye's
I am waiting,
Let's connect.
I hate merely hi's and bye's,
Be around at least,
So we can be friends.
Hoey Lit
Monday, February 05, 2007
Photojournalism
On the other hand, my emcee skills are not that impressive, the curtain was nearly knocking me down when it was closing. Who cares? Great show.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Gotham Penthouse's Boys
At 12 am, we went into Gotham Penthouse to catch the Odessey - a dance act of 5 hot guys from Johannesburg (imagine a bulkier Backstreet Boys that dance but don't sing). Initially we thought it was a strip show. Thank goodness it wasn't. I would have grossed out.
Hoey Lit